Sunday, October 16, 2005
{ 6:44 AM }
i sometimes feel i'm like the worst person on earth, actualli i'm suppose to b contented with the things i own, but yet again, i grumble. haiz..i noe..i'm suppose to zhi1 zu2, but if u were in my position, u juz couldnt. i'm happi with juz owning all these things, the memories n stuffs. the frienz n things, but there r sum things tt nid perfection. as in, i dunt nid it to be perfect, but at least it muz be brought in a way that i cn accept, no like suddenli shocking me. argh, i cant stand this type of things. nvm. heys, when i grow up n think baq at all these times spent, i guess, i'ld b rather happy n contented, but not now. not right now. tuday is sho boring. spent my time practising my piano n guzheng. i played the bridal march. the married song. hahaas. sho furni. but vv nice. tml holis, but dunt noe how to spent it. going to slack at home. n btw, there's piano lesson tml. haiz. feel sho stressed up these few days. (: muz smile more! i like haf no confidence to face the future. i hav no faith in myself. i noe, the world is full of surprises that awaits us to discover ourselves, but this juz aint suitable for me, u dig? ha. debrief on tues. i'm gonna fail watever paper tt'll b out on tues n start sobbing like a baby. i juz feel like hugging sumone n bawl. non-stop. i mean, wat's the use of hidding yr feelings when it'll hurt u terribly inside? argh. bi ran kip telling me to cry so tt i wont feel bad inside. the more she said, the more i felt like crying manx. it's a nice thing to hav nice frienz ard n it realli make me feel guilty. i didnt treasure them. o mien. i'm mean. i'm a meanie. i sux big time. heys, with u guys ard me, wo3 si3 er2 wu2 han4.